Holidays are hard – being surrounded by family and friends
is the best feeling but knowing a special little boy cannot be here with us
makes today extra difficult. It seems like every day brings its own challenges,
but with those challenges comes a thousand things that we have to be grateful
for.
This year we moved to a new beautiful house that we are so
lucky to be able to afford. Leaving our old house was bittersweet, but packing
up Weston’s room and leaving that behind was definitely the saddest part. It
was hard to know that we wouldn’t be putting it back together for him again. Trying
to find a way to balance the memories and all of his things while not creating
a sort of shrine was something that Chris and I thought a lot about. This past
week, we found a really cool trunk to put all of our special Weston things in
and to give him a little place in our new home. It could not be more perfect
and has helped to make this house feel home with everyone we love having a spot.
We are so incredibly grateful for our family and friends
that keep Weston’s memory alive. Hearing people talk about Weston clouds and
Random Acts of Kindness that they’ve done in his memory bring us more joy than we
could have ever imagined. Knowing that people give their own kids extra hugs
and keep a more watchful eye on their babies brings good to the situation. We
are so grateful for all of your support when we need it and kindness – it is
truly overwhelming in the most wonderful of ways.
I’m so thankful for my husband. He is such an amazing
partner to have as we navigate this forever grief process. Some aspects get easier,
but something new that creates new emotions or brings back old ones is never
far away. I’m so lucky to have someone that is so willing to listen, to talk,
and to understand even if we don’t see things the same way. There really is no
one that understands me quite like he does. He is quite the amazing guy and I’m
so proud and grateful that he’s mine.
Our Taylee girl is the light of our lives and loves her baby
brother even though he’s not here. There is not a doubt in my mind that he will
be a part of her life forever which makes me so happy. She talks about Weston
clouds and how much she loves him on a regular basis and never fails to tug at
our heartstrings like you could never imagine.
Weston changed our lives in so many ways, and I’ll forever
be grateful that we were blessed with him, even for a short while. He has shown
us the meaning of life and the value of kindness. He has shown us the
importance of family and the idea that nothing should be taken for granted. He
has opened our hearts to be able to love a little more and shown us that the
little things are not really worth getting upset over. It’s pretty impressive
to me that one little boy could do all this, but I’m sure that’s not even all
of it… and we are so very thankful.
I hope you all have a Happy Thanksgiving and take a moment
to think about everything there is to be grateful for.
Lesson #12
